1. 18:12 5th Feb 2012

    Notes: 5

    Tags: deep thoughtsself acceptanceself esteem

    You’re all busy watching ads and balls and I’m sitting here staring at a white screen, trying to come up with a way to talk about how I feel right now.

    There’s a full moon in 2 days.  My period in 5.  Whoremoans don’t begin to cover the language needed to describe my mental state.

    I have spent years working on myself.  And that means figuring out what I want and probably more importantly what I don’t want.  And that also means working the shit out of my self esteem.  

    Liking myself for how I am and as I am is the bravest, hardest fucking thing I’ve ever done.  But in that liking, I wholly changed.  Everything shifted.  It feels almost impossible to describe - Self acceptance inspires radical change.  But here’s the funny catch about that  - radical change inspires further self acceptance which then inspires more change.  It’s a continual and never-ending cycle of getting to know myself better and better while knowing all the time that i’m never going to be the same.

     
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